I'm a college graduate working a low-grade part-time job. I've worked at this job for almost a year 1/2 and I've found it to be... many things, but not promising.
All these part-time jobs like MacDonald's or Wal-Mart do people actually strive to be something there? I hope not. I hope it's just by change that they become a manager.
I work at a movie theatre. It's not a simple job like bagging groceries or folding clothes. It's worse. Oakville is a lovely town with so much to do... the people are another story. Rude, greedy, arrogant, expecting the world to lick their shoes clean... and PIGS!!
I tried to get a head in the game at work, to get a raise or a promotion so I could be content working there with all the stress and anxiety that comes with the job. It just never happened.
I was at work last night and I was in cleaning a theatre of less then 18 people and I couldn't believe the grotesque, filthy pig sty it was. Just 18 people who made a 124 people mess. I just don't get it!! How can people feel good about leaving a full drink in their seat. You paid 6 bucks for that tiny ass thing. Not only drinks but the popcorn to.. all over an entire row and it was just you sitting their. How is that even possible!!!
If I came into you home and messed the shit out of it, would you be mad? Well fuck ya you would! I don't go into other peoples houses and knock over stuff and up and leave. I was brought up to clean up my own messes and put garbage in the garbage containers and be polite. Where ever these Oakville people came from their parents did a terrible job teaching them manners! And I thought teenagers were bad! I go downstairs to a normal 14A movie and there's barely anything in there.
So people. Please for the love of god THROW OUT YOUR FUCKING TRASH!!!!!! It's not so hard... your going right by the can anyways soooo just you know bend down (not so hard) pick it up (thats not hard either) walk (easy peasy) and toss.. ohhh not to hard.. and vuala you've just helped me out having to clean up your shit!
One of these days I'm going to blow up in someones face for being a complete moron. If I get fired.. so be it. Our managers don't give us enough credit for dealing with Oakvilleians . Well there are a few exceptions. So unless I get a raise anytime soon...which I won't I'm not going to give 100% exceptional service or go that extra mile. And if that day comes were I do get the chance to tell a customer off..I will not feel guilty and feel like I taught that person a valuable lesson. What's that kids? A lesson we've been taught since day one.. RESPECT!!!!!!!!
Monday, October 26, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
The Addam's Family..
So this past week-end I had my ipod stolen from me at work. Yes it was my own stupidity that lead to this because of not locking my locker, but still. The fact someone whom management trusts, whom I SHOULD trust also... has taken something that really meant a lot to me because it was a gift from my cousin for my birthday (and an expensive one at that).
But this isn't really the reasoning for my post. FACEBOOK IS A DANGEROUS TOOL.. you know those statues updates, well I posted my ipod getting stolen on it. IN CASE someone had any info (I have a lot of my fellow employees as friends on there and I was angry!!) well some people commented on my statues. One person in perticular, my dead beat father.
This is how the statues comments played out:
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Everything in red is what my father responded to. Seriously?! Like how old is he??!! Here's why he said what he said...
This past March my so called FATHER, called me up TELLING ME... not asking me to move my stuff out of his house because I never visited him anymore.
FIRST OFF... I'm in school, when I do come down to visit he's always at work. No point in visiting my dad if he's not there. I'll come over and pop my head in to say hello and then when he leaves I'll leave.
So he tells me his girlfriend is moving in with her 3 yr-old son because she'll be paying rent and that I can stay in the basement. WHOOHOOO lucky me!!! So some kid I've never met gets my the room my mom spend weeks painting and I months trying to decorate and make it my own place since I was 6. Yes I'm 21 I should move out, but I don't have a house just yet.. I'm not getting $6,000 buck-a-roos a month like him so I can afford to live on my own and put my stuff somewhere. Where is it right now, all in my mom's basement taking up a butt ton of her space. I'm thankful she's letting me keep it there for the time being, but still.
SOOOO.. he tells me to move my stuff out, ok I will. As I'm moving my things out my mom reminds me to take my dresser (which have been mine since the day I had my own room... thats me being a baby btw) so I could have some dressers to put my clothes in, finally) so I take them.
My father calls me up and tells me I wasn't allowed to take them because he never said I could have them... wait a minute weren't you the one who told me I had to move MY STUFF out of my room... yes you did..
So I'm pissed beyond belief and not talking to my dad, so he sends legal papers from his lawyer to my mom stating those dressers are his from my Aunt Debbi (which they weren't) and either wants them back or $800 bucks.. wow I'm so glad my love has a price tag.. he'd rather get $800 and or dressers then having his daughter in his life.. hmm WOW don't I feel special!!
My father and brother claim I only call when I want something, sure.. when I need advice on my car or to tell him something is wrong with it.. i thought he knew great places to get it fix for cheap THAT'S WHY I CALL... oh and to work up the courage to get the money HE OWES ME.. but alas it's been almost a year and I haven't seen one red cent from him. Hey dad thanks for helping me with my education... DICK BAG! All he has to give me is $125 a month... holy crap!! that's it..
So back to my dresser story, as you can see in the facebook comments my dad has stated that I STOLE THE DRESSERS... they were his sister (god rest her soul) BTW when my father and Aunt Debbi were growing up they hated each other... so he's trying to get sympathy from people.. BAHAHAHAHA not working.
Don't get me wrong, my Aunt wasn't the nicest person in the world. But she was a great woman who help many people including my Aunt Pam. She was a great teacher, Aunt, wife, sister... and it's a damn effing shame that her life was taken so soon.
I'm just sick and tired of my father blaming everyone else but himself. Like my brother even thinks I NEED to call my dad to mend things. WHY ME?! I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING. My brother is being manipulated by my dad and his messed up mind. It's a damn shame that he can't own up to his mistakes. I'm his flesh and blood... and wood and paper thats green is more important to him right now.
It's really childish he has to say all those things on facebook... I have over 300 contacts and they can all she how shitty of a father he is now.. no need for me to tell them, he did it himself.
Soo for all those people out there who also have dad's who value materialistic things more then them, I feel for you. I know how much pain and hurt you go through everyday knowing your dad...or even mom (not my mom) doesn't give 2 shits about you.
But this isn't really the reasoning for my post. FACEBOOK IS A DANGEROUS TOOL.. you know those statues updates, well I posted my ipod getting stolen on it. IN CASE someone had any info (I have a lot of my fellow employees as friends on there and I was angry!!) well some people commented on my statues. One person in perticular, my dead beat father.
This is how the statues comments played out:
Jenna Dianne is pissed some stole her ipod touch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WTF!!! Are you serious!?!?
yah someone punked it from my purse at work.. like of all places.
holy hell!!! that's horrible girl!!! I think some ass kicking is in order!!!! grrrr
If I knew who it was I'd risk my job to give'em a major ass kicking. Dianne gave me it as a birthday gift last year. It's a damn shame I can't trust the people (girls especially) I work with.
from cineplex work?
i would be reporting that to the police and investating everyone that worked on the same shift that day
yah from Cineplex. I should report it, but I don't know... the GM didn't seem to concerned
I'd report it anyways! Do they have cameras or anything around? My goodness they should care! That is anexpensive item that was stolen!!! I'd report it Jenna Baggins if I were you :P
lol well I'll see, I was gonna put up a poster and give the person a reward who returned it.
WTF..where did someone steal it? At work or from your car or where? if it's at work you need to file a report with them..Don't reward someone who stole it, they aren't going to give it back... pretty bad
IT SUCKS WHEN SOMEONE STEALS THINGS THAT DON'T BELONG TO THEM RIGHT JENNA
WOW is all i can say.................so lame
Such an inappropriate comment for a dad to make to make to his OWN daughter!! maybe he should just GROW THE FUCK UP..
the truth is the truth.
the truth is an ass is an ass
and your a back stabing bitch
You want the truth ask jenna who put her up to taking dressers out of MY house that did not belong to her they were given to me from my sister GOD REST HER SOUL. AND WHAT EVER KAREN SAYS I DON'T GIVE A FUCK.Because i now the truth and so does MY son because his mother told him so.
This a joke and not needed for facebook wall. This is your daughter Rob does it really matter??, your sister loved Jenna as well and I am sure she would want her to have it, if this is even the truth. Its an object and Jenna should mean more to you then then a dresser it sounds so pety and sad. I hope your wake up before its to late to mend a relationship back with your own blood.
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Everything in red is what my father responded to. Seriously?! Like how old is he??!! Here's why he said what he said...
This past March my so called FATHER, called me up TELLING ME... not asking me to move my stuff out of his house because I never visited him anymore.
FIRST OFF... I'm in school, when I do come down to visit he's always at work. No point in visiting my dad if he's not there. I'll come over and pop my head in to say hello and then when he leaves I'll leave.
So he tells me his girlfriend is moving in with her 3 yr-old son because she'll be paying rent and that I can stay in the basement. WHOOHOOO lucky me!!! So some kid I've never met gets my the room my mom spend weeks painting and I months trying to decorate and make it my own place since I was 6. Yes I'm 21 I should move out, but I don't have a house just yet.. I'm not getting $6,000 buck-a-roos a month like him so I can afford to live on my own and put my stuff somewhere. Where is it right now, all in my mom's basement taking up a butt ton of her space. I'm thankful she's letting me keep it there for the time being, but still.
SOOOO.. he tells me to move my stuff out, ok I will. As I'm moving my things out my mom reminds me to take my dresser (which have been mine since the day I had my own room... thats me being a baby btw) so I could have some dressers to put my clothes in, finally) so I take them.
My father calls me up and tells me I wasn't allowed to take them because he never said I could have them... wait a minute weren't you the one who told me I had to move MY STUFF out of my room... yes you did..
So I'm pissed beyond belief and not talking to my dad, so he sends legal papers from his lawyer to my mom stating those dressers are his from my Aunt Debbi (which they weren't) and either wants them back or $800 bucks.. wow I'm so glad my love has a price tag.. he'd rather get $800 and or dressers then having his daughter in his life.. hmm WOW don't I feel special!!
My father and brother claim I only call when I want something, sure.. when I need advice on my car or to tell him something is wrong with it.. i thought he knew great places to get it fix for cheap THAT'S WHY I CALL... oh and to work up the courage to get the money HE OWES ME.. but alas it's been almost a year and I haven't seen one red cent from him. Hey dad thanks for helping me with my education... DICK BAG! All he has to give me is $125 a month... holy crap!! that's it..
So back to my dresser story, as you can see in the facebook comments my dad has stated that I STOLE THE DRESSERS... they were his sister (god rest her soul) BTW when my father and Aunt Debbi were growing up they hated each other... so he's trying to get sympathy from people.. BAHAHAHAHA not working.
Don't get me wrong, my Aunt wasn't the nicest person in the world. But she was a great woman who help many people including my Aunt Pam. She was a great teacher, Aunt, wife, sister... and it's a damn effing shame that her life was taken so soon.
I'm just sick and tired of my father blaming everyone else but himself. Like my brother even thinks I NEED to call my dad to mend things. WHY ME?! I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING. My brother is being manipulated by my dad and his messed up mind. It's a damn shame that he can't own up to his mistakes. I'm his flesh and blood... and wood and paper thats green is more important to him right now.
It's really childish he has to say all those things on facebook... I have over 300 contacts and they can all she how shitty of a father he is now.. no need for me to tell them, he did it himself.
Soo for all those people out there who also have dad's who value materialistic things more then them, I feel for you. I know how much pain and hurt you go through everyday knowing your dad...or even mom (not my mom) doesn't give 2 shits about you.
Monday, April 20, 2009
You know when something great happens in your life you just can shut up about it...
Well finally it's happened to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
For years I was so bummed about my failed relationship and the guys who have been complete douchebags to me. I could never get pasted the whole "let's date, but not be an official couple". However, it's happened.
I can't even believe how lucky I am to have this guy in my life! He's someone I'd share my deepest secrets with, spend every second with, he's smart, funny, loves everything I love, is a romantic guy, HOT AS HELL, ANNNNND... HE CAN DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's just the most amazing feeling ever to know that you best friend is you boyfriend and that your more happier then you've ever been in your entire life... well besides when I went to see the Back Street Boys.
My mom was always an optimistic person when I came to me and my love life.. I wasn't. I guess the saying proves true "mothers are always right" lol because I've finally found my Prince Charming !! Everytime I think about him I smile and get butterflies in my stomach!! When we hug I never want to let him go!!
When I wake up in the morning and check my phone to see a text from him, I know my day is going to be amazing regardless of what happens!! We are like Jim and Pam from the office...
--> we work together.
--> we are bestfriends
--> we have are own little inside jokes
--> we have a friend who works with us that we've planned to prank. They will happen soon.
--> we send each other funny videos all the time
--> we are now dating :D
So to some up everything I've said and the feelings I have for this incredible guy I will let Natalie Cole sing my feelings lol
Thanks Sam, I couldn't for a better guy to be my boyfriend :D
<3 Me
Well finally it's happened to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
For years I was so bummed about my failed relationship and the guys who have been complete douchebags to me. I could never get pasted the whole "let's date, but not be an official couple". However, it's happened.
I can't even believe how lucky I am to have this guy in my life! He's someone I'd share my deepest secrets with, spend every second with, he's smart, funny, loves everything I love, is a romantic guy, HOT AS HELL, ANNNNND... HE CAN DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's just the most amazing feeling ever to know that you best friend is you boyfriend and that your more happier then you've ever been in your entire life... well besides when I went to see the Back Street Boys.
My mom was always an optimistic person when I came to me and my love life.. I wasn't. I guess the saying proves true "mothers are always right" lol because I've finally found my Prince Charming !! Everytime I think about him I smile and get butterflies in my stomach!! When we hug I never want to let him go!!
When I wake up in the morning and check my phone to see a text from him, I know my day is going to be amazing regardless of what happens!! We are like Jim and Pam from the office...
--> we work together.
--> we are bestfriends
--> we have are own little inside jokes
--> we have a friend who works with us that we've planned to prank. They will happen soon.
--> we send each other funny videos all the time
--> we are now dating :D
So to some up everything I've said and the feelings I have for this incredible guy I will let Natalie Cole sing my feelings lol
Thanks Sam, I couldn't for a better guy to be my boyfriend :D
<3 Me
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Oh Mister Sun!!
As I sit in my office working on.. work, of course. I'm greeted by a new friend. One whom I've been distant with and have not seen in over 3-4 months. Shame really, he's one of the hottest guys I know, he makes me smile, laugh and just over all much better person.
I peer out my window, breathe in deep and say "Hello Sun, haven't seen you in a while. Looks like I might have to come out and and go for a walk" YESSSSSS!!
THE SUN IS FINALLY HERE AND IT IS WARM!!!!!!!!
Seriously, everyone has been waiting for this day! I can walk out side in a sweater and bask in the sun and feel it's warmth on my face and know it's going to be a great day!
I think, if not a person thing, the sun makes or breaks my day. I could break my arm, but I know if the sun is out and warm and loving that I'll be in a great mood. (knock on wood I don't break my arm.)
I'm a much more pleasant person over all and love life just a little bit better each day!
I so much would love to gather all my friends and go for a picnic right now, how fun would that be. Grab the old frisbee, a skip-it, a yo-yo or 2, maybe some devil sticks and a nice cold refreshing bottle of Orbitz!
I hope for the next week or 2 it'll be like this! I can't stand anymore snow.. frigid cold weather or rain. Well rains ok.
So on my agenda for today:
1. Download some new tunes. So far I'm checkin' out The Devil Wears Prada and No You Girl by Franz Ferdinand.
2. Go outside for a walk
3. Buy a new pair of jeans
4. make a new friend
5. say hello to an old one :D
Let's see how many I can get done today :D
Have a wonderful sunny day!
-Jdizzle
I peer out my window, breathe in deep and say "Hello Sun, haven't seen you in a while. Looks like I might have to come out and and go for a walk" YESSSSSS!!
THE SUN IS FINALLY HERE AND IT IS WARM!!!!!!!!
Seriously, everyone has been waiting for this day! I can walk out side in a sweater and bask in the sun and feel it's warmth on my face and know it's going to be a great day!
I think, if not a person thing, the sun makes or breaks my day. I could break my arm, but I know if the sun is out and warm and loving that I'll be in a great mood. (knock on wood I don't break my arm.)
I'm a much more pleasant person over all and love life just a little bit better each day!
I so much would love to gather all my friends and go for a picnic right now, how fun would that be. Grab the old frisbee, a skip-it, a yo-yo or 2, maybe some devil sticks and a nice cold refreshing bottle of Orbitz!
I hope for the next week or 2 it'll be like this! I can't stand anymore snow.. frigid cold weather or rain. Well rains ok.
So on my agenda for today:
1. Download some new tunes. So far I'm checkin' out The Devil Wears Prada and No You Girl by Franz Ferdinand.
2. Go outside for a walk
3. Buy a new pair of jeans
4. make a new friend
5. say hello to an old one :D
Let's see how many I can get done today :D
Have a wonderful sunny day!
-Jdizzle
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Oh what a night!
Ah back home in my comfy pjs with a HUGE smile on my face... this can only mean one thing.
BLUE PENIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No seriously, and lots of it. Well besides the big blue dong many things have been factored into this amazing night of awesomeness!!
Let me start from the beginning...
Jenna's Journal March 4th, 2008: 9:58pm
Just finished watching Lost with my friend Sam. An announcement comes on saying Lost will be back 2 weeks from now. Eff, what am I going to do till then. Don't feel like working, shopping is out of the question, gorsh damnit. Oh well we'll think of something.
Jenna's Journal March 5th 2008: 12:00am
It's here, finally. After 20 years of waiting and anticipation fan-boys of the most celebrated graphic novel of all time will get their comic book turned into a movie. I've finished it Tuesday. Is it possible for a person to fall in love with a book... well I have so it must be!
Jenna's Journal March 7th 2008: 6:30:
I'm finally getting to see the movie I've been waiting for. I can't contain my excitement... about..to..scream like...a... a little girl!! EEEEEEEEEK!!!!!!!! YAAAHOOOOOOO!!
9:45
OMG OMG OMG OMG I'm speechless... I just witnessed god! I can't believe how cool that movie was.
So here it is.. Sam and I have decided to go and see Watchmen again... IN IMAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This will be my first time experiencing the IMAX.. experience.
So tonight well yesterday now. Sam and I ventured to the mississauga theatre.
There I saw the most incredible thing ever!!!
MY FACE... TWICE!! On the big screen!! haha ha aha no no no
WATCHMEN!!! OF COURSE!!!
OMG OMG The opening to show what the IMAX experience was... AMAZING!! Lazers, and music, and AWESOMENESSS!!! I would have just paid for that!!
Then it happened!!! OMG my mind almost exploded with amazment! The screen lit up like fireworks in my eyes!
I couldn't believe how wicked this was, it was like nothing I had experienced before!!!
Best thing every, I couldn't believe how wicked the movie was.. 10x better in IMAX then in the regular theatre!!!
OMG I'm so glad Sam suggested IMAX man that guy has a brilliant mind!! It was awesome and I'm so glad he got to come with me and experience my first IMAX movie with me it made it all the more better!!
Next weeks adventure...
!!!!!!PLAYDIUM!!!!!!
Look out for my sweeet minute by minute blog about our exploration to playdium :D
-Jenna
BLUE PENIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No seriously, and lots of it. Well besides the big blue dong many things have been factored into this amazing night of awesomeness!!
Let me start from the beginning...
Jenna's Journal March 4th, 2008: 9:58pm
Just finished watching Lost with my friend Sam. An announcement comes on saying Lost will be back 2 weeks from now. Eff, what am I going to do till then. Don't feel like working, shopping is out of the question, gorsh damnit. Oh well we'll think of something.
Jenna's Journal March 5th 2008: 12:00am
It's here, finally. After 20 years of waiting and anticipation fan-boys of the most celebrated graphic novel of all time will get their comic book turned into a movie. I've finished it Tuesday. Is it possible for a person to fall in love with a book... well I have so it must be!
Jenna's Journal March 7th 2008: 6:30:
I'm finally getting to see the movie I've been waiting for. I can't contain my excitement... about..to..scream like...a... a little girl!! EEEEEEEEEK!!!!!!!! YAAAHOOOOOOO!!
9:45
OMG OMG OMG OMG I'm speechless... I just witnessed god! I can't believe how cool that movie was.
So here it is.. Sam and I have decided to go and see Watchmen again... IN IMAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This will be my first time experiencing the IMAX.. experience.
So tonight well yesterday now. Sam and I ventured to the mississauga theatre.
There I saw the most incredible thing ever!!!
MY FACE... TWICE!! On the big screen!! haha ha aha no no no
WATCHMEN!!! OF COURSE!!!
OMG OMG The opening to show what the IMAX experience was... AMAZING!! Lazers, and music, and AWESOMENESSS!!! I would have just paid for that!!
Then it happened!!! OMG my mind almost exploded with amazment! The screen lit up like fireworks in my eyes!
I couldn't believe how wicked this was, it was like nothing I had experienced before!!!
Best thing every, I couldn't believe how wicked the movie was.. 10x better in IMAX then in the regular theatre!!!
OMG I'm so glad Sam suggested IMAX man that guy has a brilliant mind!! It was awesome and I'm so glad he got to come with me and experience my first IMAX movie with me it made it all the more better!!
Next weeks adventure...
!!!!!!PLAYDIUM!!!!!!
Look out for my sweeet minute by minute blog about our exploration to playdium :D
-Jenna
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
He's just not that into me..
WOMEN OF THE WORLD HERE ME NOW!!!!
I HAVE GIVEN UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's right, I'm done!!! Fuck them... fuck'em all!!
I've just returned from a little movie all men should be deathly afraid of... any man in a relationship who is very unsure of how it's going should be scared shit-less right now.
This movie has sparked what many people call a revaluation. A new sense of purpose, view on my love life which up until now I've been completely blind sided about.
Ask yourself, why hasn't that really cute guy who called you telling you that he can't stop thinking about you and would do anything to make things right again called you back? Well geee I don't know. Maybe it's because HE JUST WANTED TO FUCK!!
Welp.. he got what he wanted... and you YET AGAIN (you stupid stupid girl) fell for him!!!!!
or how about the guy who "totally digs you" BUT CAN'T GET OVER HIS EX.... bottom line. He just doesn't like you all that much.
UUUUGH, time and time again I put myself out there just to be put back on the shelf like some toy you play with twice and forget about!! Every guy I've ever fell for has done the same damn thing!!! Why can't guys just be up front and honest with me these day... just fucking tell me that you thought it was something but it just really wasn't. Would make my life a lot better!!
Or maybe it's just me, maybe somethings wrong with me... am I bad in bed? Does my snoring turn you off? Is it my big nose? Or my none so Paris Hilton body! YES I'm 126 pounds... yes I'm a little chubby for my height, YES I try and walk everyday to keep fit!!! I'M NOT A FUCKING WHALE!!
SO WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!
So I guarantee there will be some men viewing this and going... geee woman get a life!! It's not the end of the world. -No your right it's not. There's always a solution or a way around a problem... so why am I ranting about it? Don't know. Maybe I just want the men who've done some pretty shitty things to me to see and read now badly it hurts. I'm just not content on leaving it be.
I'm like Jack Shepard I have a compulsive erg to fix everything. This is one of those times. In my experience with relationships I've found that guys make up more excuses then woman! They just don't have the balls to tell the truth, don't worry about hurting our feelings... we are stronger then you think!! Don't let US be miserable too just because you can't say those 6 words.. I'm-just-not-that-into-you
Ok so I have had opportunities to be with someone, but they weren't my type.. not what I was looking for. I wasn't into them... I'm not just going to be with someone because I'm desperate. I just don't lead people on thats all..
and don't call me a hypocrite either because I'm not. I just wish things could be different. I sat there watching this movie and this girl was me... down to a T. I've done everything she's done, been in all her situations with guys... I've even cut my own bangs hahah (those who've seen the movie will get that)
I'm just tired of looking and waiting, I want to fall in love whether I say it or not. I love having a boyfriend!! I love to fall for a guy, experience the ups and downs. I just wish things could turn out better then they are now. I take 1 step forward in love and 2 back.
I'm cursed. I just want someone who I like to break that curse.
I HAVE GIVEN UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's right, I'm done!!! Fuck them... fuck'em all!!
I've just returned from a little movie all men should be deathly afraid of... any man in a relationship who is very unsure of how it's going should be scared shit-less right now.
This movie has sparked what many people call a revaluation. A new sense of purpose, view on my love life which up until now I've been completely blind sided about.
Ask yourself, why hasn't that really cute guy who called you telling you that he can't stop thinking about you and would do anything to make things right again called you back? Well geee I don't know. Maybe it's because HE JUST WANTED TO FUCK!!
Welp.. he got what he wanted... and you YET AGAIN (you stupid stupid girl) fell for him!!!!!
or how about the guy who "totally digs you" BUT CAN'T GET OVER HIS EX.... bottom line. He just doesn't like you all that much.
UUUUGH, time and time again I put myself out there just to be put back on the shelf like some toy you play with twice and forget about!! Every guy I've ever fell for has done the same damn thing!!! Why can't guys just be up front and honest with me these day... just fucking tell me that you thought it was something but it just really wasn't. Would make my life a lot better!!
Or maybe it's just me, maybe somethings wrong with me... am I bad in bed? Does my snoring turn you off? Is it my big nose? Or my none so Paris Hilton body! YES I'm 126 pounds... yes I'm a little chubby for my height, YES I try and walk everyday to keep fit!!! I'M NOT A FUCKING WHALE!!
SO WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!
So I guarantee there will be some men viewing this and going... geee woman get a life!! It's not the end of the world. -No your right it's not. There's always a solution or a way around a problem... so why am I ranting about it? Don't know. Maybe I just want the men who've done some pretty shitty things to me to see and read now badly it hurts. I'm just not content on leaving it be.
I'm like Jack Shepard I have a compulsive erg to fix everything. This is one of those times. In my experience with relationships I've found that guys make up more excuses then woman! They just don't have the balls to tell the truth, don't worry about hurting our feelings... we are stronger then you think!! Don't let US be miserable too just because you can't say those 6 words.. I'm-just-not-that-into-you
Ok so I have had opportunities to be with someone, but they weren't my type.. not what I was looking for. I wasn't into them... I'm not just going to be with someone because I'm desperate. I just don't lead people on thats all..
and don't call me a hypocrite either because I'm not. I just wish things could be different. I sat there watching this movie and this girl was me... down to a T. I've done everything she's done, been in all her situations with guys... I've even cut my own bangs hahah (those who've seen the movie will get that)
I'm just tired of looking and waiting, I want to fall in love whether I say it or not. I love having a boyfriend!! I love to fall for a guy, experience the ups and downs. I just wish things could turn out better then they are now. I take 1 step forward in love and 2 back.
I'm cursed. I just want someone who I like to break that curse.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
A Rant; by me...
What's the deal with stupid people in Canada.. did they all flock from the states I don't get it!!
So my placement has started I work monday-friday 10-6. Get on a train and get home at 7:30. Do I have time to do anything.. no. My social life at 21... GONE.
Not only do I work that job (and not get paid might I add), but I also work at Cineplex SilverCity during the week-ends.
Yes I'm an expensive person... my poor future husband. I need extra cash because my fucking school siphons it out of me like its gas. I'm completely broke now.. so I need money some how.
BUT LET ME MAKE THIS CLEAR!!!! I like to have SOME time for myself during my week-end seeing as I don't get any during the week. So scheduling me from almost open to close Saturday and Sunday DOESN'T LET ME HAVE THAT ABILITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CINEPLEX HIRE SOME MORE FUCKING PEOPLE!!!!!!!! I don't get it... for those thinking of working in a movie theatre, don't. You think Wal-mart is a magnet for stupid people.. well you haven't worked at a movie theatre yet.
I swear, my daily dose of stupid people during my day has to be....a 9/10 ratio. I just don't get it.
I'm so miserable these days.. thanks to school and my lack of motivation at my placement and my non-exsistant social life. Oh not to meantion money.
It's always about money..
GOD IT'S FREEEEEEEEZING.... my office has to be as cold as the outside.. theres this mystirious cold breeeze wafting in!
I'm trying soooo hard to be optimistic about everything. I love my placement, it's really cool. writing coverage for it... not so cool. I just have a hard time getting my thoughts out on paper.
My job, isn't so bad.. free movies, tips, free food.. I work with some of the best people, but the management there (besides Deb) is terrible. Irrisponsible, snobby, uptight arseholes!!!!
I wish it would all just go away.. I saw this wicked ad for the best job ever. 6 months on an island taking care of it in Australia... I'm applying for it!! It starts in July and man... it would be a dream come true. I just need to get out of here and clear my head.. one thing goes out another in..
I'm tired of snow, toronto, canada, working, not having fun, school... I WANT IT TO ALL GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope a plane and leeeeeave.. if only. I need adventure, I need to get out and explore, find myself.. I don't know who I am anymore.
So my placement has started I work monday-friday 10-6. Get on a train and get home at 7:30. Do I have time to do anything.. no. My social life at 21... GONE.
Not only do I work that job (and not get paid might I add), but I also work at Cineplex SilverCity during the week-ends.
Yes I'm an expensive person... my poor future husband. I need extra cash because my fucking school siphons it out of me like its gas. I'm completely broke now.. so I need money some how.
BUT LET ME MAKE THIS CLEAR!!!! I like to have SOME time for myself during my week-end seeing as I don't get any during the week. So scheduling me from almost open to close Saturday and Sunday DOESN'T LET ME HAVE THAT ABILITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CINEPLEX HIRE SOME MORE FUCKING PEOPLE!!!!!!!! I don't get it... for those thinking of working in a movie theatre, don't. You think Wal-mart is a magnet for stupid people.. well you haven't worked at a movie theatre yet.
I swear, my daily dose of stupid people during my day has to be....a 9/10 ratio. I just don't get it.
I'm so miserable these days.. thanks to school and my lack of motivation at my placement and my non-exsistant social life. Oh not to meantion money.
It's always about money..
GOD IT'S FREEEEEEEEZING.... my office has to be as cold as the outside.. theres this mystirious cold breeeze wafting in!
I'm trying soooo hard to be optimistic about everything. I love my placement, it's really cool. writing coverage for it... not so cool. I just have a hard time getting my thoughts out on paper.
My job, isn't so bad.. free movies, tips, free food.. I work with some of the best people, but the management there (besides Deb) is terrible. Irrisponsible, snobby, uptight arseholes!!!!
I wish it would all just go away.. I saw this wicked ad for the best job ever. 6 months on an island taking care of it in Australia... I'm applying for it!! It starts in July and man... it would be a dream come true. I just need to get out of here and clear my head.. one thing goes out another in..
I'm tired of snow, toronto, canada, working, not having fun, school... I WANT IT TO ALL GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope a plane and leeeeeave.. if only. I need adventure, I need to get out and explore, find myself.. I don't know who I am anymore.
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