Quit Playing Games!!

Wow... 3 1/2 weeks it's been since I've laid eyes on my blog. It's not like anyone reads them anyways, but I find myself terribly frustrated because my heads so clogged with everything; work, school, people, friends, family and my big problem myself. So I use this as my personal councilor to explode at and hate life... well not exactly.

Ah so what interesting and unadventurous things have I been up to.... not much actually. A couple parties here and there... went and saw the movie Penelope, which is such a good movie!! James McAvoy is incredibly sexy and sooooooo amazing, I wish he wasn't married!!! WHY ARE ALL THE GOOD MEN TAKEN! Or even the good ones aren't "interested" GAH..

I'm doing the usual pulling my hair out of my head because the amount of stress that had been going on in my life. I look at myself and compare it to others stressful days and mine aren't even close.. but never the less this isn't something I'm use to. So I tend to panic more easily now and I'm starting to think that this is never ending. Today is Friday and I have a commercial shoot I'm doing... I have this uneasy feeling that something terrible is going to go wrong, which seems like it may just happen..

The question is, am I putting to much pressure on myself making this seem worse then it is.. or is this a reality and I'm a shitty producer..

There is to much work to be done.. but I love being busy. I'm not being lazy and playing WoW as much and the free time I do have I'm out with my friends more now. I'll just be so pleased when tomorrow is finished. Then I'll be drinking my liver away for St.Patty's day!!!

Sometimes I feel people don't give me a chance. Yes there are a lot of awesome producers in my class.. but, no one asks me to do it. I have a hard time pushing people to get a position. Maybe it's my social-anxiety, or just the fact I'm shy. I want to have a big roll in a production.. hopefully my time will come.


So how's everything else.. it's alright. I think I worry about things to much and over analyze things. I feel everything happening to me is going to have a bad out come. Really I do..

I wish I could let things just happen and be really easy going...

Oh well I can only hope something up lifting and cool is going to come about soon.. well something did.. but again I'm having my worries about that awesome thing to... men..


Can't live with them, can't live with out them..

I just wish I had the courage to say something..



have a great week-end everyone :)