He's just not that into me..

WOMEN OF THE WORLD HERE ME NOW!!!!

I HAVE GIVEN UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's right, I'm done!!! Fuck them... fuck'em all!!

I've just returned from a little movie all men should be deathly afraid of... any man in a relationship who is very unsure of how it's going should be scared shit-less right now.

This movie has sparked what many people call a revaluation. A new sense of purpose, view on my love life which up until now I've been completely blind sided about.

Ask yourself, why hasn't that really cute guy who called you telling you that he can't stop thinking about you and would do anything to make things right again called you back? Well geee I don't know. Maybe it's because HE JUST WANTED TO FUCK!!

Welp.. he got what he wanted... and you YET AGAIN (you stupid stupid girl) fell for him!!!!!

or how about the guy who "totally digs you" BUT CAN'T GET OVER HIS EX.... bottom line. He just doesn't like you all that much.

UUUUGH, time and time again I put myself out there just to be put back on the shelf like some toy you play with twice and forget about!! Every guy I've ever fell for has done the same damn thing!!! Why can't guys just be up front and honest with me these day... just fucking tell me that you thought it was something but it just really wasn't. Would make my life a lot better!!

Or maybe it's just me, maybe somethings wrong with me... am I bad in bed? Does my snoring turn you off? Is it my big nose? Or my none so Paris Hilton body! YES I'm 126 pounds... yes I'm a little chubby for my height, YES I try and walk everyday to keep fit!!! I'M NOT A FUCKING WHALE!!

SO WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!

So I guarantee there will be some men viewing this and going... geee woman get a life!! It's not the end of the world. -No your right it's not. There's always a solution or a way around a problem... so why am I ranting about it? Don't know. Maybe I just want the men who've done some pretty shitty things to me to see and read now badly it hurts. I'm just not content on leaving it be.

I'm like Jack Shepard I have a compulsive erg to fix everything. This is one of those times. In my experience with relationships I've found that guys make up more excuses then woman! They just don't have the balls to tell the truth, don't worry about hurting our feelings... we are stronger then you think!! Don't let US be miserable too just because you can't say those 6 words.. I'm-just-not-that-into-you

Ok so I have had opportunities to be with someone, but they weren't my type.. not what I was looking for. I wasn't into them... I'm not just going to be with someone because I'm desperate. I just don't lead people on thats all..

and don't call me a hypocrite either because I'm not. I just wish things could be different. I sat there watching this movie and this girl was me... down to a T. I've done everything she's done, been in all her situations with guys... I've even cut my own bangs hahah (those who've seen the movie will get that)

I'm just tired of looking and waiting, I want to fall in love whether I say it or not. I love having a boyfriend!! I love to fall for a guy, experience the ups and downs. I just wish things could turn out better then they are now. I take 1 step forward in love and 2 back.

I'm cursed. I just want someone who I like to break that curse.