FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!

There's a difference between love and life.. love makes life, life fucks you so you don't get to experience love. Maybe I'm feeling something I haven't for a very long time or just drunk as hell, but for one night I'm growin a back bone to tell all and not hide it anymore. I just wish i knew the truth.. I'm tired of getting lied to about love... i just want to find someone i can love forever.... i hate this shit. I hate crying over spilled milk, but for once can I have just a little luck with love.. MEN in general because I feel... so a lone.. it sucks!

I hate men leading me on to believe there's something there.. then nothing.. I like you.. but not visa versa.. it's painful and they don't understand so I'll just sit here with my tissues and The doors' greatest hits... as I try to type out my feelings as there jumbled on the web... fuck men..

I saw him today.. for the first time in months.. why does he get all the lucky with love and i get shit on.. he deserves fuckin nothing.. that worthless piece of shit man!!!!!! I did everything i could to be a good person!!!!!!!!!!! DO I NOT DESERVE LOVE.. AGAIN. INSTEAD I GET FUCKED OVER AGAIN AND AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


As much as I bitch and complain it's not going to get me anywhere.. I like to fight for what I care about.. and for what I want.. so I'm going to fuckin fight.. and if i fail in the end at least i gave it my everything and got a good fuck outta it.....

I'm so angry right now, my nose hurts so much... i should have listened to the commercials .. "your nose will agree puff's plus is the place to be"?? oh i donno, shit ouchy.... 50 tissues later and my nose is as red as Rudolph's!!!!!!