For Love of the Game

Hello my friends, life is good... no?!

So lately I've had a lot on my mind, but when don't I. I keep pushing the problem I should be dealing with to the back of my brain and shoving them in a dark corner in hopes that it'll never come out. However, you know when you have a jar of pennies and each day you add more without rolling them.. and more, and more. Then the next thing you know you've got a full jar of... pennies... The point is.. you'll be needing another jar for the over flowing ones and thats just not fun. So continue from that point.. my brain is the jar.. my problems the pennies.

To be honest folks I'm not one to deal with problems well. I get all choked up an just let it slide, but let me make one thing clear.. not all my issues are bad. I do have good ones... ones that I have to make a life changing decision and either path I take is still good no matter what. I think that these problems have become the most difficult to conquer at the moment. I'd go into detail but.. I'm not sure if that would be a good idea.. seeing as some people I know in my life are involved and possibly read this.

I'm not one to out a friend or family member out on a blog...

I have so many friends to listen, I just always feel like I talk to much and burden people with my issues rather then help them out to. I know I should be a little more open about my feelings and let people in to see and tell me something to push me along, but I'm just afraid of criticisms and just the way they'll view me after.

So other than my depressing sob story.. I actually have some fun stuff to talk about. Being M.I.A for a few months and all..


Summer has begun and what a summer it's been thus far, working.. and working... oh and of course WORKING. Not that I'm complaining my pay checks are very nice this year :D I just wish my friends and I were able to get together a little more often to spend some time together. I was very lucky to have one of my best friend Mar get a job at the movie theatre I work at now Silver City.. so me and her can reminisce about the good times.. and get caught up and our so-called "love lives" which .. I really don't have much to say.

My job is really the best one I've had yet, great management, awesome people, cool perks, just awesome. I've met some really nice people and made so many new friend, WHICH, I'd like to point one out.. Tom... hey Tom.. what's cookin' good lookin'. I hope your reading this..

You are by far the coolest dude friend (next to the house pals) I have yet!!! I know we've only known each other a little over a month.. but man oh man.. I'm so lucky to have this job and to have met you!!

Now ladies.. do you want to meet a guy with the softest.. most luscious hair.. well glide your fingers through this guys gorgeous head of golden blond locks.. OH EM GEE!

Oh I'm also looking into buying a new car :D I'm super excited I finally can either pass down my piece of shit.. or trade it in baby!! OH YEAH!! My cousin has offered a room to me during my school year.. which I'm super excited about too.. my stupid house making decisions from this past year will never happen again.. worst mistake ever!!

I bought a wii fit, trying to get back into shape even though I don't have a ton of time during the day I have to admit this little contraption has really helped me. When my little cousin is sleeping.. i hope right on and exercise away.. for 40 min and I feel great. MOTHER'S.. this seriously is a must.. if you don't have a wii.. get one.. and then a wii fit!!! All this bad publicity it's been getting is bullshit like the one about people suing because of damage done to their homes.. from using it. What artards don't know how to clear a space to be able to move ON THE BOARD!! seriously. Oh the little 12 year old who was old she was "fat" more like obese from the wii fit bmi calculator.. the girl was 5'2 and 120.. well i'm 21 and thats my weight.. and my BMI is 24.33 thats just about normal. So maybe at 12.. you might want to think about shedding some extra pounds..
Is that to harsh.. really? Honestly.. this girl made me feel skinny.. thats impressive. It really does bother me that parents let their kids get to these extreme weights and kind of let it slide. I think I'm an average size.. I mean it doesn't help that my tata's are almost 10 pounds each.. but seriously on a good day.. I think I could pull of modal body status .. for size 7..

almost 11.. I'm going to see Wall-e tonight with a bunch of my cast mates from work.. this outta be fun :D I'm so worried I'll fall asleep, I have been sleeping well.. with work and everything I haven't been getting my 8 hours.. more like 4-5. I wish my family would start to understand that this is what I have to do to get by.. I have rent, car, tuition, loans, credit cards, food, clothes.. all this to by and I'm only working a nanny and part-time job. My student loan will be a complete 30 thousand.. after i graduate.. thats 200 bucks a month for a interest payment.. that plus my car payment.. maybe 300-400 hundred.. my social life will suck ginormous sweaty balls this coming year.

Money is the root of all evil.. and until I either a) win the lottery b) have some money just pop up from no where or c) become filthy rich and famous.. or d) play the stock market right.. I'm effed.

Ok i'm going to take a 15 min nap.. or i'll die..

Well world.. I'm off to sleepy town.


"Don't hate the player, hate the game"

- J-dizz ya'll lol